As a staff pastor my episodes of manic Mondays is limited considering I carry only a small load of what my senior pastor may carry. I still suffer from the post-sunday blues often enough to commentate on this issue this morning, go figure it’s Monday. For those who do not know what a Manic-Monday is, it’s the day that many pastors think about how bad their sermon was, how the music could have been much better, how the church must hate me, and how God must be telling me to resign right now.
This summer I packed up our belongings and my family and I moved to Red Oak, TX because we (church leadership) clearly knew God wanted us to do so. Now it’s March 2008 and over 14 families have made the move with us. Imagine this, three full-time pastors and their families moving across the country because God said so, and now we have just short of 60 in the church today.
This is probably the most difficult season of ministry in my short nine year tenure, and yet the most fruitful as well. Living life wondering if God will provide not just for our church and staff, but for the families that made the move as well, can be overwhelming and discouraging. I am truly experiencing the fact that the enemy wants to kill us, not just annoy us. I have preached sermons that talk about spiritual warfare, and discipled quite a few in how to combat the enemy of our souls, but to actually have to live it!
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; – 2 Corinthians 4:7-9
I personally have shed no blood for the cause of Christ, I have not had death threats in the physical realm, and I have not suffered the extremes of this world. I am so thankful for His mercy and blessing. The problem is when you are in that moment of despair on any given Monday, all reality seems to close in fast, and we can lose our bearings on how good God has been.
Walking in faith is never easy, and never should be in my experience.
I posted earlier about my possible conversion to the English Standard Version instead of the New King James Version. Well, I went to Mardel Christian Store in Arlington, TX and bought the ESV Reformation Study Bible after spending close to an hour in the store. I sat down and compared the three study bibles available in ESV: The Scofield Study Bible, The ESV Literary Study Bible, and The Reformation Study Bible.




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